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Day 12 - 14 - Finding my feet.

It's been a couple of days since I last wrote in this, but it feels a LOT longer than that!
I have a (not so official just yet) job in a local pub. Technically, two local pubs, both owned by the same woman. It's a relatively stern place with the odd regular, and VERY difficult to handle when you've had no experience, the first shift was strenuous to say the least, but I'm so thrilled to have been invited back after cocking up so many times.

Things in general, over the last couple of days seem to be falling into place more for me, I feel more myself again and a lot more relaxed, I seem to have met a very nice group of people and Goldsmith's is very beautiful on a sunny day, especially so now i've pretty much learnt my way around. New Cross is nice too and even Camberwell seems a little more charming after walking through the Green at night; there's a strange melancholy in watching the buses drive by and the cars whiz past, and it's just a really nice area to have a sit and think.

Freshers week has got off to a really pleasant start, today being the best! The tour of Camden was such a beautiful day and I'm so pleased to say I have a little more culture in my life here, many of the people I have met coming from around Europe. I guess over all it's just nice talking to people my own age with shared interests, it seems like months since I have really been socialising when in fact it's only just two weeks.

Everything seems to slowly be falling into place, and whenever i'm feeling alone and down I need to remind myself of this: I'm actually really fucking lucky. I'm about to enrol at one of the most creative and exciting universities in the world, I'm earning my own money, I'm seeing my Mum again and I live in mother fucking London!! Which, sure, isn't all perfect days out near Big Ben or Knightsbridge, but is still relatively exciting here and there. There are so many opportunities coming my way at the moment that I can't afford to mess up, I'm going to greet them with open arms and leave behind that negative 'no can do' attitude that i've stuck myself with for a while, because the truth is, i've got music, and family and interesting, friendly new people in my life. I'm not sure that I need much more than that at the moment, this evening i'm pretty content, looking past the hassles and into the near future where I can start learning again.

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